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I have a friend named Doug
He had to buy a plug
He went to the store,
Which was a bore
And instead came back with a slug.
Heart Broken
I thought I was yours
I thought you were mine.
We had so much in common
We were perfect together.
Together forever is what we would say.
We went through the good,
We went through the bad.
We were on the right track,
Or so I thought.
But when I wasn't looking
You took a wrong turn.
You told me nothing would happen,
That you would always be true.
I took your word,
And I believed in you.
I saw you look at her
The way you used to look at me.
I told you I can do better,
Just tell me how
Because I can't stand to be parted.
We were meant to be together.
You told me it was over,
That you didn't love me anymore.
I was shattered, I was crushed,
I knew I couldn't go on.
I look back on the days,
When we were together as one,
As I hang here now, no feeling left in my limbs.
My breath becomes shortened
As each second passes and the room becomes blurry,
I relieze that without your love,
I have nothing to live for and wish you the best.
Depression (July 6/03)
Hidden wounds
Broken hearts.
Hatred thoughts
Cuts and scars.
Dispise me
Hurt me
Kill me.
Laughing and teasing
Pointing and mocking.
Miserable
Alone
Lost.
Help me...
Way I Feel
Around my heart
You grasped your hands
Ripped it out
And there it stands
All alone
Empty inside
And this I know, I should of shown
The Way I feel
…Because this is real
Random Writings
Alone Again (June 16/03)
I am alone again.
I reach out for help and I am turned down.
Maybe I am just not worth it. I am uniportant. Nobody cares.
They do not understand.
But they will be sorry. Or will they?
Am I even a memory in their hearts?
Do I mean anything to anyone?
Maybe I am not worth their time.
Everything is my fault. I am always the one to blame.
I am no good. I am always screwing up.
No one close to me wants to help.
They shun me down until I am nothing. I am nothing
I do not matter.
I am going to leave this place,
This prison
With one bullet, one cut, one overdose.
I don't deserve to be here,
And everyone likes pointing it out to me.
There is no doubt I am unwanted.
I am sure of it.
I will only be a statisitc, nothing more.
That is my future, my destiny.
God help me with my troubles.
Help me with my fears.
Take away my pain and let me be no more.
Questions (March 15/03)
I am filled with nothing but emptiness. My mind is confused, and I am alone. There's no one to turn to an no one to listen. I am not sure who I am or where I belong. I have so many unanswered questions lingering around in my head. Is there someone who can tell me who I am? Somone to let me know where I stand? How do I know where I'm going, and how do I get there?
Feb. 14/03
I am everything & I am nothing
I am confused & misguided
I am alone yet loved
I am free but restrained
I am passionate & loyal
I love & love to be loved
I crave attention & enjoy solitude
I need but don't want
I want but don't need
I am opinionated yet shy
I enjoy & want to be enjoyed
I am nothing & I am everything
Jan. 3/03
I'm so confused. I don't even know who I am anymore. I don't know what to believe. I don't know who to trust, who's my friend, or where I belong. I need to find my place. There's no where to turn, and no one to turn to. I feel alone.
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